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Fly with the Wind.happy everyday! happy you and me! April 02 Move to New Website~!~~March 16 I am growingTonight, i had a little argument with him who doesn't know me, to be frank, i don't know him as well, we are totally different peopel, which we can't stand each one of us. I was supposed to have a peaceful supper with him in friday evening. Believe it or not, we were totally screwed up with each other, he didn't like my topic and so did i. What's worse, we kept no talking during the long way to restaurant, no words but pissed emotion. Although we finished all the dishes, i didn't feel satisfied at all. I am not a good grilfreind, and he is not the Mr right i am keening for. I have no idea that why i found him one year ago, i have no clue that why we keep this tough relationship so agony. I have no idea! However, what i really knew from tonight is that we have no chance or even possibility to together, that is what i really sure about! I know him and he knows me as well, we all know we are just cheating ourselves so that we would not get hurt after the broken. What i really learnt is that it is extremely tough for lovers to keep steady relationship with each other, not even mention the old couple, how can they bear their partners for such a long time? OMG, maybe i am too rational to be fall in love with someone until i become mature. Now, i could not devote all my heart and time to that one, i know i has tremedous to deal with, not the love, i pretty sure. Moreover, i would not give up purchasing my goal because of someone i don't think he is signifucant to me.
One of my freind said i am selfish and i would hurt him horribly. Maybe, i am, however, i didn't expect too much from him, i wouldn't beg him buying precious things for me, i wouldn't ask him devote himself to me. What i always tell myself is that only me could save myself. I couldn't image what is his reaction if he saw this article.
Anyway, it is better to change topic, right? Life is life, i should not bother by this fussy tiny little thing, that is not me! I do appreciate financial accounting professor Ben from College of Economy. He teaches not only fundamental accounting principles, but also life attitudes. He told us numerous life experience from his life, asking us doing things step be step, don't push yourself. Everything should have its rules and procedures, including life. Sometimes, you desire tooo much and you get nothing but upset feeling. January 26 绝对令人脚软的一天（2007年1月26日） 久违的space，真想不到一个台湾地震震动了中国连通外国网站的正常运行，其实要上这里真的很不方便，网速慢，而且极占内存，cpu占95％，所以没什么事我也不会上来。但是今天晚上洗澡的时候很有冲动在这里写点东西，2007年的第一个月份里在我身边发生了很多很多很多很多倒霉的事：（我很乐意在这里一一道出）
A.手机在宿舍被偷;
B.电脑中超级无敌大病毒“熊猫烧香”（很讨厌exe文件上可恶的熊猫头像，一点都不可爱，确实超级恨制造这个病毒的人，害我全部盘格式化，以前所以珍藏的照片都一去不复返，乒乓球邀请赛，一家人温馨的黄山旅游，暑假的亚洲溜冰赛，朋友们的记忆，都没有了，很痛心）,而且顽固的病毒让我尝试了一个晚上重装3次的破记录的创举，还我酸痛的眼睛！
C.期末考试运筹学只有4道简单的题，我却不知道为什么发昏不会做，大家考完都喊容易，只有我一个人郁闷地站在角落，一只乌鸦飞过，我只有无奈：
D.QQ差点被盗，幸好有“申述”让我夺回我宝贵的qq，里面有无数的朋友啊，少了你们我的生活只有一片空白啊；
以上是我的霉事，但是重点还在下面将记录我们工管党员支部的活动：一个字：累～～～～
7点30，我很不情愿地从被窝里钻出来，想说一定8点能从紫薇赶到正门的脚踏实地，但是8点飞过去的时候，一个人都没有～只有零丁的保安在无聊地谈话中，不是8点在正门么？？查看一下信息，晕，8点准时在北门集合，还千叮万嘱不要迟到。要知道从正门到北门，用跑的也要15分钟。可想而知，我到那里的时候，大家异样的眼光令我无奈，我也是哑巴吃黄连—有苦说不出。8点30分北门全部人集中，一共30个人浩浩荡荡地坐79到北大深圳医院下车，一震震荡后，我被某人托去买水，也就去了，折腾了1个小时才找到岁宝买24支王老吉，6支矿泉水。中间走了好多路，到了莲花山公园后我们扛着沉重的饮料走了大半个小时才到山顶广场，大家也在那里等我们了。忽然想想，我干吗那么无聊去买水？自讨苦吃！鞋子本身穿着就不舒服。好不容易爬到山顶，照了几张相，喝了王老吉，就这样我们又浩浩荡荡地走到山下。中午12点，到吃饭的时候了，意见分歧的我们分为2批，一批去吃肯德鸡，一批去吃快餐，又是很饱的一顿。 December 03 Junior Life Cold Night in December~Brezzing~
It is long time I haven't been here, it is strange that someone keep talking beside me, prevent me from writing the words down. It seems she can't be my best freind, maybe we always stay together, i do think she is strong girl who seldom tell me her suffering and feeling. Anyway, she is nice and smart girl who is wise enough to choose what 's her good freinds. I bless her, it is not easy for a single girl who live far from parents. Like me, i can go home once a week, but she, just stay at boring dorm, surfing online all the time. I do believe she is independent girl who would have good life in the future.
Christmas Day is coming soon, i haven't smell the greeting smell, not at all. I have no idea time would pass so quickily. I even don't think it is Dec now, i though it is just Nov or earlier. This semester drives me crazy, tons of assignments, my burden professional study made me breathless. I haven't chosen many courses this term, it is strange that i have to struggle for piles of assignments. Exhausted by CET6 as well, i don't think that exam is good for us, the tedious vacabulary makes me mad! I can't imagine how great we are if we had great mark in CET6, just some faith exam which take us time to remember the useless grammar. Anyway, i have to conquer it, after all, i need it, right? Work hard for it.
As a junior, i feel i am still childish and immature, I know i can be better, more independent and smarter, am i right?
" Sweety, we can not prevent what we can predict, to enjoy this beautiful day!" Keep going! October 29 给自己勇气，再努力一下下（自己都还没怎么努力啊～） 好久没上来了呢～大概也没有人会过来看看了吧～也好，现在终于有点感觉到为什么有些人要把自己的博客设为私人空间，他们还不是想在网络上寻找属于自己的小小的不被人发现的空间。现实确实很累呢～大三了，很多人在过去三年都努力地奋斗着，看着他们的简历越写越长，内容也令人惊叹，不免发觉自己迷茫无搓：自己的美国之梦有点动摇了，虽然说没有怎么努力开始过！相对于正在努力的同学们，我这几年在干什么？出国的事虽说一直都有准备，但是就是没有付诸行动。要去美国实在太艰难了，很艳羡晓洁拿到康奈尔大学的offer，她还过了GRE，牛人～这个牛人考上公务员也就没出国了。也好，现在过着悠哉游哉的生活。
出国的硬性条件是优秀的英语成绩，我要继续努力，爱上那些“可爱”的单词，友善的阅读，诱人的语法，还有动听的对话！只要有了高分的英语就有主动权！这个过程是艰苦的，我真的很佩服那些一直坚持着的人，以前我坚持考托福，今天去了英国教育展，感觉去英国容易很多，又想考亚斯了～一年就完成硕士课程～很诱人吧～相对的，也有居多的中国有钱人申请去英国，特别是现在的高中生，他们家哪里来的钱啊？高二就出去了？家里有经济能力代表良好的前提条件，希望他们不会成为纨绔子弟，他们要好好珍惜在国外的生活。忽然，很唏嘘！呵呵，竟然又感叹人生起来了，自己都还没正真踏入残酷的社会，装深沉呢～
托福，亚斯。美国，英国。我是有时间，还有半年可以准备GMAT，但是懒惰的我不想付诸行动～很难有坚持的毅力，我欠的就是这份坚持。那些坚持了的就达到彼岸了。anyway，这个学期目标是努力修好课程，过六级。就这2个目标。很少～希望自己能达到彼岸～
大三，这就是我期待的大三，更多的压力，更复杂的心情，更多的选择，更多的皱纹，更多的……忧虑。原来长大是这个样子的～还好，长大的我能够解决发生在自己身边的事啦～心态慢慢调整，儒道相济！ September 07 献给你们！9月7号下午4点。睡足，吃足，来写写东西吧，连续这几天都出去了，4号跟晓洁去求实图书批发中心买书，每次跟她聊天都能得到收获，又是一个优秀有能力的女人，大学毕业年纪轻轻就考到深受大家宠爱的公务员一职位，她在大学优异的表现更是另我刮目相看，还有积极进取，友善的性格另我折服！她渴望爱情，期待第一次神圣的爱情的到来，她还专门去占卜呢，算命说她在明年会碰见她的真名天子，她很高兴地这样告诉我，看着她期待、纯真的笑容，我很替她高兴，有时候人需要某种说不清的精神激励着自己，这样不是很好么？她很有能力，对什么人说什么话，跟我就聊些人生与感情认识，为人处事，生活琐事；对我妈（她的同事）灵活地转换话题，说说同事间的琐事，为人处事的人际关系等等；跟她的朋友则又聊不同的话题，带小孩、美容健身的心得啊，饮食健康建议，似乎跟各个年龄层的人都聊得来，真的很有能力，我也在向她学习着。 5号下午约了泽萍与晓燕到华强北，到了那无聊地走进面点王，又无日无夜地聊着彼此的生活，晓燕奋斗明年考专升本，考到后再读2年才能拿到本科毕业证书，不是容易的说，她也跟我一样碰到困难了就想退缩，我们都是想不劳而获的懒人！志同道合啊！在她眼神里看到我自己，我们都很矛盾，计划了美好的将来但一碰壁就又犹豫不定了。晓燕跟我感觉是“她成长了”。不再是随便就任性发脾气的天真女生了，为人处事更圆滑。看来在广东警官学院的艰苦生活磨练她不得不改变以前的生活态度。她真的变成熟理性了，我很高兴。她跟泽萍很有默契，看得出她们真的是很好的朋友，形影不离，又是一对难得的知心朋友。晚上她们请我吃肯德鸡，还送我去坐车呢！高中同学还是真得联系，不然事隔几年又失去联系，很是可惜。
昨天一大早就去了学校打扫卫生，那可真叫累！洗地是最令人恼苦的事，肮脏的地板，你真的拿它没辙！下午就在水吧毫无目的地讨论论文，很久我们都没有达成一致的框架，至于我，只有听他们发言，他们都很有知识，不象我，半桶水，发个言也吱吱巴巴，说不出个重点。傍晚跟殷师姐聊聊她的事情，她只是短短的20年人生，年少的时候失去了她的哥哥与弟弟，她一家5姐妹非常孝顺与独立，都不希望给父母带来负担，都是报喜不报忧！她在大三课务最忙的时候接了3份家教，为的是挣到她的生活费。她们一有什么病都不会跟父母说都是自己解决，怕父母担心！想想我，拉个肚子都对父母喊天喊地，要她们的贴身照顾，更别说自己去医院看病了。她的人生很坎坷，但是她很独立与坚强地说：“是生活逼我的。”她真的很不屈不挠，我很佩服她！
今天早上去翠园找陈老师，她还请我到过桥米线吃午饭呢，再一次经历高中曾经走过的日子：下雨了，我担着一把小小的雨伞，小心地踮着脚走路，坐着依旧的大巴，双眼还是依旧地望着打满雨滴的车窗，再一次天真的幻想着花季雨季的美好生活，对生活将来依然充满期待，信心！看着在我身旁走过的一群群天真的高中生，怎么感觉自己变老了呢？心态老了？对现实看得比较理性了？知道社会还是残酷的？是件好事，起码自己是不断在成长的。面对残酷的现实，要有良好的心态，这样才能继续保持积极进取的心态努力向前！原来我是那么地幸运，陈老师的母亲离开已多年，她自己的婚姻不幸福，自己一个人把女儿拉扯大真的很艰难，虽说女儿是她继续的动力，但是事实的很多琐事不是一个单亲家庭承担的了的。她现在在处对象了，男方也是离异并带有一个男孩。在跟老师的交流中我看到30—40岁年龄层对人生另一种理解：多了份理性，少了份束缚；多了份责任，少了份冲动。“我的人生是不顺的，这就是我的人生。”老师跟我分享了很多她的见解，又让我见识不少了！她建议不要找重处女情结的大男人主义的男人，他们自私又霸道。年轻男女很容易因为生理需要而做冲动的行为，当然对于除夜要谨慎对待，你自己认为准备好了就好好享受年轻的魅力！她这个想法改变了我对处女的认识：以前我总认为只有等到结婚后才可以结束处女身。很感谢她对我的忠告，就是每次一点点小的建议就让我受益非潜了！她还告诫我一定要把英语学好出国见识见识，一个深大本科毕业根本找不到好工作，目光要长远。如果又混混恶恶过日子，几年后就会后悔自己当年没有咬紧牙关拼个研究生。想想也是，本科毕业后的工作也是周而复始同个动作，工资又不高，日子过得不轻闲，我也不喜欢这么单调无趣的生活。我要奋斗！不要受到周围的影响，确定目标奋力向前，全力以赴! 记得我们的会计王老师说：“博客是写给别人看的，日记是写给自己看的。” 要开学，我准备好了，身心都做好准备了，在暑假见识真的很多，认识了新的朋友，出国旅游让我了解当地经济现状与生活习俗，好高兴跟朋友分享的一切一切，他们的见解都是对我的鼓励与支持。现实是残酷的，是不可变的，但是我们可以改变看待事情的心态，积极、主动、进取地活下去吧，我亲爱的朋友们！新的学期又是崭新的我，充满期待的我！ August 07 hippocampus.one part of the brain It is not used to the Live Message, here changed a lot so that it has been brought us lot of inconvenient and time consuming. I prefer the former editon.
Having been at home for Nealy a month, i really appreciate the life at home, even though massing up every day, sleep and eat all the time, yet i feel satisfied with it with no doubt. Reading some fantastic books, i am immersed in those truly proactive , positive and suggesting words arround you, it seems you can rebulid your confidence and ability from those energetic words, the following is some part of them:
1) Each of us has our own unique flaws. We're all cracked pots. But if we will allow it, God will use our flaws to grace his table. In God's great economy, nothing goes to waste. Don't be afraid of your flaws. Acknowledge them, and you too can be the cause of beauty. Know that in our weakness we find our strength.
2) Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring; all of which have the potential to turn a life around. People come into our lives for a reas on, a season, or a lifetime. Take no one for granted and embrace all equally with joy!
Hope you like it. Moreover, i will be volunteering for Asia Skate from Aug.12th to Aug.19th. Actually i am looking forward it because i think it would be a good experience for me, besides, i would meet some new freinds there, i think.
Sometimes, i feel guilty eagering for rich life. I mean, who not? Who don't want to live without worrying? However, sometimes i ask for good life without my effort,with no pain. It is ridiculous, right? I couldn't do that. Only count on myself can save me......Forget about it.Damn.
I found that we can't enjoy songs in Space, maybe it is against the copyright, i have appreciated " When a child is born", which is fabulous.
Above all, i will be continuing staying at home...Let's go forward together.
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